Meet Dylan
What does it mean to have your earliest experiences shaped by daily drug use? For Dylan, that was 15 years of growing up and exploring himself—through friendships, sex, and intimacy—while high.
“It felt like crystal was this magical substance that relieved all of that discomfort that I felt with my body, with myself, and with sex. Crystal almost became this necessary tool to get laid.”
Drugs can help us lose our inhibitions and get over barriers in our minds when it comes to connecting with other people. But they don’t come without a cost.
“I realized that I was literally trapped in a repetitive behaviour where the same day was repeating over and over and over again. I would start to hear voices telling me that if I used one more line of meth, that I would die.”
And just as drugs can be a tool for dealing with discomfort, sometimes stopping can be just as powerful a tool to sort through our lives.
“I don’t have a relationship anymore with drugs that make me high or give me an escape. And I’ve accomplished more in the last four years than I have in the 15 years prior to that. I’ve discovered more about myself than I ever discovered in those years. I need sobriety to understand what’s going on around me and what’s going on within me.”
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Meet Kevin L
For many of us, like Kevin, finding our place in life and in a community can be a difficult and unsettling process. What if we don’t fit in with this group or the other? What if we aren’t desired the way we’d like to be, or are in relationships that aren’t working?
Meet Pete
Loneliness and connection can define our experiences of drug use. In many ways, Pete’s experience of being isolated and hopeless drove his drug use for a long time. But connecting with others can change everything.
Meet Dylan
What does it mean to have your earliest experiences shaped by daily drug use? For Dylan, that was 15 years of growing up and exploring himself—through friendships, sex, and intimacy—while high.
Meet Mike
Mikes gives us a different understanding of harm reduction: a paradigm shift from celebrating counting the number of days sober to understanding how you can manage your use and achieve the rest of the goals in your life.
Meet Matt
Matt shares the unexpected reality of the diverse social classes of queer men who party. But where are the resources for them, when they don’t fit the drug user stereotypes?
Meet Colin
Colin opens our eyes to some of the barriers that keep people from reaching out for help.
Meet Tim
When the desire for intense sex starts to spiral out of control, who is there to help bring things back down? Tim shares his worry for the guys who party who start to lose everything.
Meet Kevin D
For Kevin, like many other guys, this feeling is at the heart of partying. But what happens when life’s challenges get in the way?
Meet Shazad
Shazad shares how he navigates and negotiates partying, sex, work, and boundaries, and how he balances the good times he has on it with taking breaks from it.
Meet Jordan
Jordan takes us through their experiences with opening up to others about their crystal meth use.
Meet Guy
Guy dives into the complex reasons behind partying and the impacts that you sometimes have to deal with because of it.
